so about a week ago i got a letter in the mail saying that i  won a scholarship from cal-soap. i was so excited even though it was only a thousand dollars, i won that shit! anyhooo today i was supposed to pick up the scholarship at an awards ceremony in san diego, but me and my dad got into another one of our fights, now he doesn't want to take me, and i loose out on a thousand dollars of free money. DON'T U LOVE LIFE.

 

Current Mood: okay

yesterday after my dad, brothers and me go to the movie to see spider-man 3 and we dropped off my brothers at their house, my dad started at it. he told me he hates my new pants. he said he is not playing games and that he can't control himself like i can't control myself. he told me if i can't change, that i need to start looking for a place to live. he said this really hurts him. whatever! i feel bad for him having a gay son, but i didn't ask for this either! i never asked him to accept me, maybe that is where i went wrong. well anyhooo, i need to find a place to stay, because i can't stay at home much longer.

Current Mood: numb

yeah, so spider-man 3......James Franco! hotness! 

that's all i have to say. 

Current Mood: giddy
Current Music: the beatles [a day in the life]

so last night i went to (not prom) mex with jas and claudia. we wen t drop off claudia's brother at a fresita party,  and then we went to this super-market in mex called ley. we bought a bunch of alcohol, and a case of 10 cigarette packages, then we went to josh's house at the barbra worth country club and drank. i got drunk, but i think i got sick from the chips that i ate in mex, because i threw up 4 times, and every time there was like a bunch of chips in it. LOVE JOSH by the way, he is a cool kid [sorry about throwing up at ur house]. so we spent the night there at the country club not going to prom!  

jas, claudia, and me went to a show in imperial. it was at the imperial legion, instead of the airport. i was looking forward for this show because THRILLER was playing. when we got there, we parked the car down the block, and stayed in there listening to music, smoking and jas/claudia were finishing their drinks. then out of nowhere shane and dee came from around the corner and started talking to us for a while. we left the car and went to sit in front of the legion, and a guy [band kid] came up to us and asked to bum a  cigarette off us. he was cute, tall, dirty blond hair. jas gave him a cig, and he sat down and talked to us about how hot it was here and how long the trip from LA to imperial was, because they got lost along the way, and how he used to surf, until he picked up a base guitar. his band was friends with thriller, so that is how they ended up playing here. then we went inside and saw the end of snail play. they really sucked, and i am not just saying that, but i do have a few things against the guys in the band. OLD DRAMA. anyhooo, the next couple of bands were okay, and then thriller played at the end. they were awesome, like the last time i saw them. the lead singer is way cute [strait] and so was one of the base players [surprisingly strait as well]. afterwords, we stayed and talked to the bands for about 3 hours, and they are about the coolest people u could ever meet. jas was talking more to this asian guy from another band named taylor, and got his phone number (don't hate me for saying this). while she was talking to him, claudia and me were waiting in the car, and jeremy, a guy from thriller, came and talked to us. thriller was going to las vegas after this, so we were talking about that. actually, jasiel and claudia were really contemplating about going with them to vegas. anyhooo, we said goodbye to them about three times before actually leaving. and after jas and claudia dropped me off, they went to del taco, where the band was eating and stayed to talk to them for another hour. and all in all, i love thriller!

Current Mood: bouncy

a couple of days ago my dad gave me money for prom. i told him i bought the tickets and rented a tux. yeah, i lied. i gave most of my money to jasiel to hold on to. she was pissed because i spent a lot of it. [i have spending problems] when i have money i spend money, and when i don't have money, i don't spend money. it is a horrid habit to live by.

this weekend i went to a music festival with my savapa class in los angles. on the way up to LA  we stopped at a rest stop and i went to the bathroom. i was going to use a bathroom stall, but the toilets were made out of metal, and looked really gross. so i ended up using a urinal, which i hate doing. then one of my friends jimmy said jokingly "i didn't know u peed standing up," then i said " i usually don't, but these bathrooms are nasty". then a random guy out of nowhere went to use the sink and said aloud "fucking faggots are ruining this country and the world". hahaha....day in the life of thomas. 

don't do drugs.

Current Mood: peaceful
Current Music: simon curtis [put your makeup on]

i really can't. my fifteen year old friend {u know who u r} has stories. what is that.  well, i guess he kinda found out about my stories. well he didn't hear the whole thing, if u really want to know, it is on my live journal, i think it is on april 9th, if u care.  this journal shouldn't be public, but i am not changing it. i am leaving this public for all the fucks who want to feel good about themselves. u can read this journal about a screwed up fat kid.....black fat kid. 

====oh and dub's house is ridiculously disgusting! [thank u jas]

Current Mood: crazy

wow, and it keeps on coming


THE WAY I SEE IT #233

I used to think that going to the jungle made my life an adventure. However, after years of unusual work in exotic places, I realize that it is not how far off I go or how deep into the forest I walk that gives my life meaning. I see that living life fully is what makes life - anyone's life, no matter where they do or do not go - an adventure.

-- Maria Fadiman
(Geographer, ethnobotanist and National Geographic Emerging Explorer.)

everyday, me and jas go to starbucks. and on the back of the starbucks cups, they have these sayings by different people call THE WAY I SEE IT. and everyday we were getting the same ones over and over again, about darwinism and evolution, and one about love which was really cool. but we were getting tired of getting them, then out of no where we got this one about god the other day. and now, i got this on, just about five minutes ago, and i am so excited. i hope u feel the same way. (i'll keep u updated on any new ones).

 

THE WAY I SEE IT #241

Worldwide, nearly 40 million people are living with HIV and AIDS. Over 13 million children are infected with HIV each year. And 25 years into the AIDS pandemic, no vaccine or cure is in sight. The number speak for themselves. What are you going to do to help?

-- Joe Cristina
founder of the children affected by AIDS Foundation

[i am liking these new ones, they are starting to get intense!]